I’m not sure how many other women are sufferers of menorrhagia. I’m not sure how many other women hold this frustrating condition to themselves. Just about the only thing I am sure of is how much I hate it.
As open and honest as I am with most things on this blog, there are some parts that I just can’t formulate into words.
Let’s see, can I provide a visual?
Let’s see, if I sneeze or cough, I have to change my clothes. While most people’s period lasts 3-7 days, my breaks between periods are sometimes 3-7 days. I’m anemic and always tired. I never feel comfortable or clean. And all those feelings equal depression. One for which there is no real solution since I also don’t feel comfortable shouting these issues from the rooftops. Which ends with a feeling of loneliness for which I have no words to describe.
Often I think of that “woman with the issue” in the Bible, and I get her. I wish I was there to wrap her in my arms and say “you aren’t filthy, or an outcast”. I would love to tell her that in spite of everything she feels she can’t do or have, that she isn’t cursed. I would want her to know that she is not “the walking dead”. I’d want to tell her that her husband didn’t “crap out” by getting her when the dice rolled.
And I have nights, like tonight, where I wish someone would do the same for me.
I have miserable periods and all they keep saying is have a hysterectomy. And they are so cold when they look and say you can’t have kids because your uterus won’t hold a baby. I am anemic, depressed, feel worthless, and just today refused the hysterectomy. I took it for granted when I got pregnant when I was much younger. but I don’t want a child without a husband. And they look at me and say adopt and worry about a man later. They just don’t get it. But after the shock and four or five doctors saying to give up, I have decided to enjoy not having my period for a few weeks. I feel great! I canceled the myomectomy that was going to be a hysterectomy and I am going to breath while I ask God to grant my wishes.
EVERY WORD you said was on point.
Take some time to allow your body and spirit to heal up. It’s vital to your survival and success.
Good luck to you!!! ((hug))