C’Mon Son!

I was not aware that Chicago radio is allowed to play me the same twelve songs ALL DAMN DAY.

Didn’t know that it was okay for AMC to show Forest Gump EVERY NIGHT THIS WEEK.

Just discovered that USA Television Network shows Law & Order Everything for the first SIX HOURS OF THE BROADCAST DAY.
Only ONE of the Real Housewives of Atlanta was actually married.

How is that okay?  How do they get to shovel nonsense at their leisure without a single person posting opposition?  Meanwhile, every step of positivity that is attempted by anyone is scrutinized, picked apart and discredited.

I’m trying to push an actual needed niche of information, and feel like I’m running in the mud.

But its cool for WGCI to play me every member of the Young Money Roster in a ten minute time span?

I know what you’re thinking,

“Um, what does this have to do with the Broken Brown?”

Well, here’s the thing.  Here’s where you get a glimpse into the tangled process of my brain. LOL  Thinking about all of this, made me start thinking about other things.  From there, it occurred to me that we are far too open about pushing everything nonsense under the sun, but then all of a sudden are quiet as church mice about things that should be shared.

Between my plans for The Broken Brown and my ventures with ChocolateBrides, and so many other avenues to support positive African American life, I was beginning to think I was whining.  Beating people over the head with what I want to say and share and change.  I started to stifle myself or give myself  the “talk yourself out of it” speech before I sent tweets or Facebook posts.  I didn’t want to bug anyone or push people away.And then something struck me.

I follow Star Jones on Twitter.  Yesterday morning, during a ramble, she basically said that she credits her weight loss success to the fact that she remained private about her surgery.  She went on to say:

Now, don’t get me wrong, I agree for the most part, and have heard similar things from celebrities who had to “grow up” on television, etc.  What I’m torn about is the fact that while she took her weight loss decisions to be private and mute, she gave us all a front row seat to her wedding and its over the top shenanigans.   A very lengthy portion of The View became Star’s Wedding Show, and that was okay?  Meanwhile, you’ve had the weight off longer than the marriage lasted and you still hold the “It was a private matter”, banner over your head.  GTFOHWTBS.  Someone needed to hear that Star!  Some heavy black woman somewhere is TIRED of holding up the “Big Boned” mantra and wants to hear that someone else is taking a stand.

No woman should be silent or in the dark about her weight, fertility or appearance, when Flavor Flav can tongue down women far beyond his stature on national television.Why is no one held accountable for regurgitating b.s.?  What are we going to do about balance?  Why don’t we demand it? And for that matter, why do we criticize those who do?

I’m working hard.  Working hard at maintaining my sanity.  Working hard at providing a forum for like-minded people.  Working hard at becoming a resource for women who may be holding on to far more thin a glimmer of hope than even me.  I’m working on weight and mental health, and finances, and cultural awareness, and progression, and I’m barely getting a breather.And if I have to work this hard, just to bring new lives into this world, then this world should be working JUST as hard at becoming a place for lives to flourish.  Let’s start pushing the REAL.  Let’s start demanding a balanced representation in all facets.  I won’t shut up, if you won’t.