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BrokenBrownBelle: “The other side of my infertility” Part 3

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There were more appointments then ever. And instead of reading about people talking about beating PCOS and drifting into motherhood, the talk had turned to talk to exclusively the word miscarriage. That word could strike fear in my heart like no needle ever could and  it was suddenly everywhere.

Oh my God, could I have come this far only to spend every set aside dime and then lose my baby?!? This never was a thought to me until we started with the injections. The second I was asked to spend a lump sum, and get down to penniless for this “project”, it occurred to me that women lose babies everyday. I wanted to think of the worst case scenario and ask myself if I could handle whatever that was. Could I deal with the bills I was getting from the infertility clinic, the money I’d spent trying to get pregnant, the surgeries I’d had and then the possible threat of miscarriage?

I had never asked myself that question before, I was afraid to. I never brought the word up. I thought if I didn’t, it would definitely decrease my chances of it and at least preserve my sanity.  But, suddenly people were coming forward bringing that word to me and I could not escape the thought.

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BBE Rewind: The Fertile Kwanzaa: Ujima!

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Day three of my Fertile Kwanzaa series really gets me to thinking. Here’s a reflective and personal look at how Ujima is what The Broken Brown Egg is all about…

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Take Comfort. Fear Not.

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The idea of being told to take comfort, when clearly all the alarms are ringing, feels like insanity.But then I started to really focus on the words.TAKE comfort…

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Is this fair? Empathy and Prayers *BrokenBrownBellePost*

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So, I was in prayer for our sisters in Japan when the FedFX guy interrupted by banging on my office door.  I knew it was him, I was expecting him. But I had forgotten that I was expecting him. He was there to give me a rush delivery of Repronex injections.  By the time I got to the door I was loaded with guilt and sadness, because of the prayers that I’d just finished.

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What I Hope I Never Lose

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This week has been brought to me by the number 25(as in days until the gala), and the letter O for “overwhelmed”.Can we talk?*sigh*From writing for all these different sites to simply responding to emails, I’ve had a hard time staying on track because I…

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God…Stop Laughing…Hey, for real…What’s so funny, Man?

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PhotoSource I lost my job this month.I’ve put in four years, a few tears, a countless amount of heart and dedication, and walked away without even my full last paycheck, (Good lookin out, heffa).It’s nothing more than ironic that just a few weeks ago, I spoke…