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Fear and Loathing

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His name was Trayvon Martin.

And he could very well have been the son I’m trying for.

And that scares me.

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BrokenBrownBelle: “The other side of my infertility” Part 3

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There were more appointments then ever. And instead of reading about people talking about beating PCOS and drifting into motherhood, the talk had turned to talk to exclusively the word miscarriage. That word could strike fear in my heart like no needle ever could and  it was suddenly everywhere.

Oh my God, could I have come this far only to spend every set aside dime and then lose my baby?!? This never was a thought to me until we started with the injections. The second I was asked to spend a lump sum, and get down to penniless for this “project”, it occurred to me that women lose babies everyday. I wanted to think of the worst case scenario and ask myself if I could handle whatever that was. Could I deal with the bills I was getting from the infertility clinic, the money I’d spent trying to get pregnant, the surgeries I’d had and then the possible threat of miscarriage?

I had never asked myself that question before, I was afraid to. I never brought the word up. I thought if I didn’t, it would definitely decrease my chances of it and at least preserve my sanity.  But, suddenly people were coming forward bringing that word to me and I could not escape the thought.

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Is this fair? Empathy and Prayers *BrokenBrownBellePost*

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So, I was in prayer for our sisters in Japan when the FedFX guy interrupted by banging on my office door.  I knew it was him, I was expecting him. But I had forgotten that I was expecting him. He was there to give me a rush delivery of Repronex injections.  By the time I got to the door I was loaded with guilt and sadness, because of the prayers that I’d just finished.

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Dear Sherri Shepherd,

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Dear Sherri, I don’t know if you’re aware of how important your humor and honesty is for Black women dealing with infertility, but please, let me enlighten you…

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Whose Line Is It Anyway?

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Congratulations are in order for Mr and Mrs. Cannon, but where does their story fit in the land of infertility? Does it fit at all? Who decides, and who is in charge of sharing these stories? The Egg explores and contemplates…