“Men entertainers say,[about me] “Yes, and she can’t get pregnant.” She’s a mule, she’s barren. They sing about me. It’s a low blow. So it’s something I want people to be aware of — infertility. It’s nothing to be ashamed of. I’m not infertile. But there are women out there who are, and they may feel like they’re less than a woman so it’s just to cheer them up and tell them. Once you have love to give. I may not know the joy of giving birth, might not experience the pain and all the hurt, but I know it feels to lose a child. So if pain is pain, then I’m hurting inside.
Sometimes even now if I’m passing by a school or a playground, I’m like ‘whoa. Look at all these kids and none of them are mine.’ So many kids, millions of kids. I have so many eggs. I’m like God, what did I do wrong? Was it when I was a child, I climbed all these coconut trees? Was it when my dad used to beat me real bad or rolling down the hills? So I’m thinking all kinds of things. Something went wrong, but who knows.
I prayed a lot, I read my Bible. I talk to God. They say don’t ask why all the time but I ask Him why? And I keep praying and asking him about making my life complete. I make all this money, I have these people who love me, I have these three [adopted] kids — one is off to college — they’re beautiful. But I’m like Lord, I need this, I want to feel this, experience this. I want to prove to these people who be talking down to me, that I’m not a mule or barren.“
Thanks Lady Saw.
In this 2007 video, Dancehall Queen Lady Saw lays aside her normally raunchy persona and tackles the topic of Infertility quite beautifully.
Regina Townsend is the primary author and founder of TheBrokenBrownEgg. A librarian and writer, Regina’s mission is to make people aware and active about the unique concerns of reproductive health in the minority community.